Having twins and loosing my wallet

Last night I gave birth to twins in my dream. It was a boy and a girl. I had to give birth on the floor in the delivery room, and the male nurse put my arms in this weird device that bent my arms back, because I had broken my elbow the last time... I didn´t remember ever having broken my elbow, but I did as he wanted. The twins were very small, like porcelain dolls, and giving birth to them didn´t hurt at all. I had not prepaired for having children in any way, I don´t think I knew I was having a baby at all.


The wallet
I had another dream as well, and in this one I had lost my wallet. James and I were at this bar, and as I was about to pay for a drink I realized that I had lost my beautiful pink leather wallet. I backtracked to every bar we had been to, but couldn´t find it anywhere. I got this paranoid feeling that the bartenders didn´t tell me the truth when they said they hadn´t seen it. At one point I noticed that every bar had a swimmingpool in it. Very weird! But even weirder - every pool had at least one toilet next to it out in the open so that everyone in the place would see you pee. I got a bit freaked out at this point. I went back to the bar James was in. My sister had joined him. She gave me my wallet and I grabbed it. I opened it and inside I found all my stuff. But then I realized that even all the stuff inside was mine, this was not my wallet. It was the same pink leather, even the same brand, but a different style. I asked her how she had found my stuff and this wallet. I never got an answer because I woke up...

Horses

Every few months I dream about horses. Last night i dreamt about horses again. The setting in these dreams always differs but one thing remains the same - I never get to ride any of the horses.

My Healer tells me to look for what is weird in my dreams. What seems weird of off is often the clue to what the dream is really symbolizing. In the horsedreams what is wird differs from dream to dream. Sometimes the horses turn to wood as I try to climb onto them. Sometimes they shrink and become small as cats and impossible to ride. Sometimes the horse seems normal, but one limb or another is ridiculously small, like a big horse with a head the size of a shoe. Sometimes I think I´m riding a horse only to discover that I´m really riding a bike or a motorsycle. Very frustrating!

I have no idea what these dreams are trying to tell me, but reoccuring dreams have a tendency to keep pushin until I get the message. I really have to talk to my healer again when she comes home from Peru in another couple of weeks. It is time to get to the bottom of these dreams and what they are trying to tell me.

Leaving the nest

I only remember small bits of this dream, but it felt so weird that I have to write down the bits I remember.

My mother was moving from her apartment, and I was helping her pack her stuff. At some point this thought suddenly shot throug my head that it was about time I left the nest and found my own place. Then I realized that I would have to find my own place that very day and I was terrified. Then I was sort of confused because I got this feeling that I had already had my own apartment for years.

Very confusing!

This was one of those dreams that have left me with a strange feeling in my gut. I can´t put my finger on it, but it doesn´t feel comfortable...

silly silly

Last night I dreamt that I hired new help in the alpaca shop. She was young and cute. I had an interview with her and told her everything about the job, including salary. On her first day on the job she told med that she thought I was immature since I had told her everything about the job on the first interview. She said that no one reveals that on the first interview. I was pretty offended, but after talking to the other collegues of mine, I concluded that the girl was just young and immature and had probably been told this on some silly course on school or something. I did not like her after that though.

I had more dreams, but I can´t really remember them anymore...

Stairs on the outside of houses

In this dream my building was being renovated, and one of the things that was being done was putting the stairs on the outside of the building in order to make the apartments bigger. So since I live on the top floor I had a long way both up an down those stairs whenever I was going out or in. And every time I had to climb those stairs I was terrified! One weird thing that I noticed one time I was going down those stairs was that my building had changed an looked sort of like a french palass!

My boss and healer offered to interpret this dream for me, and since I had no clue what it meant, I let her. She said that I am the building, the different floors are my chakras, and that I was moving around on the outside of the building means that I am sneaking around on the outside of my body.
I think she was right about this. I absolutely feel like I am sneaking about on the outside of myself to avoid contact with my feelings...